Sunday!

Spent the morning with my mum today before she went home. 😦 We did a bit of shopping, got the last few bits and pieces, like tupperware for leftovers and lunches and a muffin tin, for muffins… Healthy bran ones though. 🙂 She also bought me some ‘move-in’ chocolate, which is OK, because I can enjoy that and then I won’t be buying anymore, so its a nice little treat.

I don’t have any Uni stuff until Tuesday, so tomorrow I’m getting my card, joining the gym, going to have a look at my college etc which should be a fun day! Internet is still an issue and we won’t have it in the house until the 18th, so I’m typing this from a local pub with free wifi. My housemates and I are all sat here with laptops which looks a little odd, but when needs must!

breakfast: banana and strawberry smoothie

snack: cadburys creme egg

lunch: salad and salsa with an apple

dinner: veggie and bean casserole

Better than yesterday, but all this was eaten at odd times and I keep letting myself get too hungry which equals chocolate… I’ll work on it and as ever, it’ll be easier when I have my gym membership and a proper schedule. I’m so happy with my tupperware though, I can take some proper fancy meals onto campus and won’t get too hungry, rush home to eat and stuff my face!

On that note, some of my clothes are feeling a little tighter than they should and my thighs are wobbling all over York (good that i’m doing plenty of walking though), so motivation to slim down and tone up is high.

Hope everyones having an amazing weekend! 🙂

Saturday!

OK, writing this without any way of posting it yet, but I’m going to record everything anyway! Trip up here was good, apart from the rain and consequent spray on the motorway, which made driving a bit scary. Made it safely, found the house, met my housemates (lovely!), unpacked, went for dinner with mum, then went food shopping.

That was a bit crazy… In hindsight we should have not bothered, because we got there at 7:45 and they were closing at 8… Instead of doing it tomorrow (my mums staying overnight in York), we just ran round! It was like supermarket sweep, but we forgot half of what I needed, like porridge oats (!!) and picked up stupid stuff on a whim like Oreos (which I am going to foist off on my housemates!) I also realised I can’t actually join the Uni gym yet, because I haven’t got my card, which acts as key for everything and I don’t think the pick up point will be open on a Sunday. Although, my mum is still here tomorrow and I want to have a wander around the city, so its not imperative. After induction on Monday, I’ll get my card and it’ll be the first thing I do. Needed, because of what I ate today:

breakfast: porridge and bran cooked in milk with a spoon of peanut butter and an apple

lunch: roast chicken sandwich (at the services: 309 calories)

dinner: veggie soup and roll, followed by a burger with a RIDICULOUS amount of mozzarella, chips and some coleslaw which wasn’t that nice but which I kept eating because it was there. Silly.

It was definitely a cheat meal and I’m not going to be able to afford to eat out here so my diet will be nice and healthy, BUT, I did eat until I was slightly over-full which I need to work  on. I didn’t weigh myself this morning, because I didn’t want to feel self-conscious in a new place if it was a ‘bad’ number, but I am weighing myself when I go home at Xmas and I want to be UNDER 145. I’m aiming ‘high’, because I don’t want to slip. The Oreos will be communal and I bought LOADS of veggies. I also got tons of dried food, so produce restock once a week will be enough, probably until Xmas 🙂 I got cous-cous, paella rice, brown rice, fresh and frozen veggies, a couple of tins of beans, chickpeas, tahini, bread (which I need to shove in the freezer), loads! I’m looking forward to some cooking experimentation.

The Last Day

I’m feeling rather cheerful today, don’t really know why, but I’ll take it! I went into town, to the bank (phew!) and then stopped into Lush and bought some ‘Love Lettuce’:

Doesn’t it look delicious? Hahaha. Its for my face, I’ve been really breaking out recently I think its down to stress. At first I thought it might have been sugar, but apart from the odd slip-up, my diet has actually been pretty good. Besides, when i was at the camp, I survived on chocolate and my skin looked amazing because I was enjoying myself, active and outside. So thats another thing I’ll have to keep up in York. Even though it will be effing freezing, I’ll get fresh air. The more active I am, the warmer I’ll be.

I was actually very good though and apart from that I bought nothing. 🙂 I also got a statement when I was in the bank and have a notebook which I will now record every expenditure in.

breakfast: porridge and bran cooked in milk with golden syrup and apple puree

lunch: two slices of toast, one with egg and one with pumpkin seed butter, ryvita minis and an apple

snack: courgette cake (not necessary, but won’t be having cake for a while! :-()

dinner: veggie stir fry with goats cheese

Off to do the last bits of packing! Meeting my new landlord at 3pm tomorrow! Eeeeeeek!

I can only be myself

I worry a lot that people won’t like me. I’m about to up-sticks and move 200 miles to a city where I know no-one and will have to start from scratch, so this has obviously been on my mind a lot. I was worrying about it yesterday and decided, I can only be myself. I can’t live a lie and I can’t change other peoples perceptions of me. I’m alright, I’m a nice, relatively normal person.

As long as I’m comfortable in myself, why should I care if someone takes a dislike to me? Its happened before and it will happen again, it happens to everyone. Sometimes, people don’t click and thats OK, it doesn’t mean that I’ll be alone and friendless in York. I can make friends, I have friends, people do occasionally like me(!!). Of all the things to worry about, this should be pushed further down the list where it belongs.

People will not hate me because I’m ‘fat’ and they will not like me more if I’m ‘skinny’. 

I’m off into town to go to the boring-bank and do some window shopping to procrastinate from packing, washing clothes and trying to organise a key pick-up/move-in time.